What's next

So as I've said recently I am working on a path to being happier... I hit a major hiccup recently.  I realized that I'm finally happy with the way things are and I'm ready for a relationship now.  Only problem was that as I realized this, I also realized that all my friends and all their friends are not single.  Leaving me with only a handful of people that are single and honestly hanging out with them is not going to get me anywhere other than hanging out with friends... which isn't a bad thing it is just I'm not going to meet anyone by hanging out with my single guy friends.

I guess I need a little more me time.  Or maybe I am just over everything and need to stop thinking about it.  I know it will happen when it happens but I don't think I can leave it be when everyone around me is a couple 24/7.  It has never bothered me in the past and it is only bothering me now because one of my friends accidentally made a comment when we went out to dinner in Dewey that how could we have an odd number of people because everyone had someone.  This was when I had to sadly remind him that not everyone had someone.  But since then it has made me more self-aware that everyone is happy moving forward with their life and I am for a lack of a better word standing still.

I guess over the past month I have kinda been thinking about the future and maybe this is the way I am trying to tell myself to stop.  I don't have a crystal ball and I don't know what life has in store for me.  I need to not be worried about a guy because if one is meant to happen he will show up sooner or later.  It might just mean that I slow down and change up who I'm hanging out with or just bunker down and prepare for studying over the winter.  As we all know life moves too fast and that PE will be here before I know it.

So I know that was a lot of rambling... sorry but had to get some of my thoughts out there.  Work through it.

Great Weekend

So seeing as I said I'm looking for new things to do.  A few weeks ago I decided I'm going to volunteer to work at a wine festival.  It was fun and different.  It was down in a small town past Annapolis as you go into Southern Maryland.  It was great and a quaint town right on the bay.  I had such a great time.  I went down there by myself to volunteer at an event called Eat Drink Go Local.  It is all about promoting local vineyards/wine and restaurants.  So I poured wine at a pairing tent for about 3 hours then I got a pass after to go around and taste both wine and food.  It made me realize something.  As I was walking around and just chatting it up with anyone pouring wine or tasting wine (it was a wine festival not much else was happening) whether it was at a pairing tent or just a vineyard's tent, I was asking questions and just carrying on general conversation.  I realized that a few years ago maybe even last year... if I were going to try something new it would always be with someone and if no one could come with me then I would not go.  I would chicken out and now not only did I go by myself but I ended up talking to a bunch of people and being asked if I want to volunteer for some of the vineyards at future festivals.  I guess I realize I'm more adventurous than I ever thought.      

I guess all it takes is a little faith that you have the guts to do whatever you set your mind to.