So as I've said recently I am working on a path to being happier... I hit a major hiccup recently. I realized that I'm finally happy with the way things are and I'm ready for a relationship now. Only problem was that as I realized this, I also realized that all my friends and all their friends are not single. Leaving me with only a handful of people that are single and honestly hanging out with them is not going to get me anywhere other than hanging out with friends... which isn't a bad thing it is just I'm not going to meet anyone by hanging out with my single guy friends.
I guess I need a little more me time. Or maybe I am just over everything and need to stop thinking about it. I know it will happen when it happens but I don't think I can leave it be when everyone around me is a couple 24/7. It has never bothered me in the past and it is only bothering me now because one of my friends accidentally made a comment when we went out to dinner in Dewey that how could we have an odd number of people because everyone had someone. This was when I had to sadly remind him that not everyone had someone. But since then it has made me more self-aware that everyone is happy moving forward with their life and I am for a lack of a better word standing still.
I guess over the past month I have kinda been thinking about the future and maybe this is the way I am trying to tell myself to stop. I don't have a crystal ball and I don't know what life has in store for me. I need to not be worried about a guy because if one is meant to happen he will show up sooner or later. It might just mean that I slow down and change up who I'm hanging out with or just bunker down and prepare for studying over the winter. As we all know life moves too fast and that PE will be here before I know it.
So I know that was a lot of rambling... sorry but had to get some of my thoughts out there. Work through it.
I know exactly how you feel. When you're in a sea of couples, it's easy to feel like the Noah's Ark reject. The only one with out a plus one. You and I both know that when the time is right, the right guy will walk into our lives and when we stop looking, love will find us and blah blah blah blah blah blah blah... I don't know about you, but somehow that doesn't make me feel any better. In fact, most of the time it makes me feel worse. You are a fabulous girl with a beautiful heart. I'm so proud of you for doing all of these things that you never thought you could do. I admire your courage and strength. And I'm very happy to do some fun single girl stuff with you as we await our lazy Prince Charmings to get off of their butts and find us already!
ReplyDeleteThere is no rush to find a man. When it is meant to be it will happen and it will be with the right person and for the best reason possible. Wait it out... sometimes doing nothing will allow time for the answer to reveal itself to you.
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